Catra

it's an uncomfortable but tempting thing to get back into sharing art, as someone who loves to make it and sit with it to myself. i know i'm too possessive of my art, although i don't want to be that. i do want it to live in people's lives more than anything, so i will share it from now on, without being obnoxious with it either.

it felt like such a big pressure to release music officially, until i got the idea to just post snippets, demos, covers, etc., here on this website. and another unknown place online..
i produce, mix and write all of my music; inspired by anything from within and outside of me. it's impossible for me to describe what genres i am making, as so much inspires me, and i do find it limiting and confusing honestly lol, there's too many genres for me to ever pinpoint it, but you can feel free to do it. i love pop, ambient, experimental electronic, dance, rock, anything middle eastern pop/folk/shoegaze, deconstructed club; many more genres. music is building a feeling, the backdrop of a memory, or a whole world in itself that occupies your mind.

...not to be super descriptive and deep about it, i know this about page isn't an audition to prove my love for it, but i really do want it to translate why it's been so hard for me to share my own work and progress.

my musical inspirations vary; i've adored imogen heap, listening to her music has always felt like someone holding my hand, guiding me through a feeling that might've been too scary to feel on my own. and shakira, i remember vividly the first music video i ever saw when i was 5, "hips dont lie", and specifically had the scene where she belly dances in the dark with golden specs on her back.... ingrained in my mind then, till this day.
and so many more artists that i won't list, its too long already ahah.

last note:
i am a very lucky girl to even have a dream, and i'm so lucky too that there's people who keep encouraging me. it's so easy to remember you all who do and have, you help facilitate a safe space in my mind, for me to know that i shouldn't hold back, and you do it without me asking you for it. i'm grateful, and i don't like to get cheesy, but it's impressive to me that you support me when i haven't even put out anything that i am satisfied with. i'm starting to learn that it's hard to love some things when you look at it from a mindset of it being the best version it could be - i'm not gonna try to find the most presentable parts of me, tbh im entertaining enough on my own. i wont round things out to the point of exhaustion anymore, i'll show the raw and interesting things i resonate with as they are.

thanks for reading btw.